Progress Report!

After challenging myself to the completion of 6 tasks in order to force myself out of this slump, I'm pleased to report I achieved 5 out of the 6. I know, I know, I was supposed to do all of them, and as it happens I completed 3.5 of them yesterday. The .5 was my managing to update my myspace profile: Myspace.com/TosinCoker, but not my personal site. Believe me, it wasn't for lack of trying! I was up til past 3am battling with it. Yes I do webdesign, but I've never learnt about flash, well guess what my site is? Yup FLASH! How I managed to get it up and running in the first place, only heaven knows. I had been dreading performing long overdue updates for the simple reason that it would require me to edit .swf files that I am clueless about. See but here is where my stubborn nature is a good thing. I was not about to be defeated, and after challenging myself, it was time to woman up! Huh, 5 hours later, I was close to tears, but more from the possibility of having to admit defeat. I was close to having my geek status revoked, I felt the pressure of my quadcore mothership computer and her blue neon lights that I swear was blinking binary abuse. She had suddenly become too much machine for me to handle I was fast descending into abysmal realm of computer illiterates.... Noooooooooooo!!! Whoa, I was having a flashback, my bad. Back to the point. So I finally carried my ass to bed and even denied myself watching an episode of One Piece (anime series) for good measure. I deserved to be flogged with a cat 5 cable, I was thoroughly gutted and sulked till I fell asleep.

But never fear, there was a twist to this sad story! A true geek dreams such equations, and this is exactly what I did (in between dreams of paying for that fricking parking ticket) and by the morning I felt a renewed sense of hope. A short time after I sat back in front of the 22inch screen of The Mothership, I began to see it. Suddenly what seemed damn near impossible only a few hours before became as clear as day. I even surprised myself with all I managed to achieve. I keep going back to the site and smiling. Yup I can finally stop sending peeps to everywhere but my site: N9NEFORMATION.COM!! Wooohhhh!!!!

As for the video:



I've designed my media kit, now I just gotta fill it and attach a downloadable link on my site (cuz now I know how to do that see). I did go for the walk, and damn near felt like I was fit to collapse. I guess I'm not strong enough to exert myself just yet. Baby steps - literally.

The only thing I didn't do was the 3 chapters. If not for how many hours I spent on the site I'm sure I could have completed that also, but I care not, I'm extremely overjoyed for all I did manage to complete. How could I feel bad when I exceeded my own expectations. The reality is, my site/myspace profile had been bugging me for a few months now. If anything they were my top priority as this is the first impression that peeps looking me up will receive. The 3 chapters were more of a bonus. Not bad for 48 hours eh?

Git Yo Ass UP!

On and off since October last year I have been suffering sickle cell crisis and little by little it has had me slow my usual pace to a complete halt. Throughout December, the pain was unfathomable and I wound up in hospital for a couple days. When I finally got over that I had some kinda mutant flu that was the worst I had ever experienced in my life and that too kept me in bed. By the time I got over that, guess what? Another fricking hospital level crisis! This time I refused to succumb and did everything from meditative breathing to popping mad pills and covering myself in so much deep heat rub, my whole bedroom seemed to emanate menthol. The thing about having a crisis is, its not just the pain that takes you down, its the time it takes for your body to recover from the whole ordeal, especially if you have to resort to taking potent dosages of pain relief. So during this period, I have been unable to move much, in fact I was stuck upstairs because I simply couldn't get up and down them. Within the space of 3 months, I became... *sigh* a bum! I did naught, but watch back to back anime and sci-fi. I couldn't even read because my head was so bleary for the pain and the side-effects of the meds that was supposed to suppress it. Yup, 1st class BUM!

We are now coming to the end of January and the worst of the pain is over. My knees seem to be in permanent crisis, but I've just had to convince myself that its now just a part of life like my menstrual cycle, and I don't pop pills for that. So live is pretty much getting back to normal, except somewhere along the line I've gone and lost my mojo. Bum mode is all I know now. Motivation, inspiration, passion, who the hell gave the triad permission to abscond and not even give me advance warning? Well, that don't sit well with me. No Sir! Today I'm hauling their bad asses back. Today my year begins with me getting back to me. Over the next 48 hours, me and my stubborn, determined, 'I know you didn't just tell me I couldn't do it' self will be completing the following tasks:

1) Write in my blog (you're reading it now)
2) Put up a new video (I uploaded one yesterday, but I'm gonna put up one today too)
3) Update a couple of my sites (myspace, n9neformation.com are the priorities)
4) Write at least three chapters (this should be interesting)
5) Design my media kit (looooong overdue that I got that finished)
6) Go for a meditation walk. (yup, I will brace the harsh London cold, pray for me)

Updates for the completion of each task will be posted on my facebook page.

Tosin Coker, time to git yo ass up, and remember how to BE!!!!