It's been a ridiculously long time since I have written in my blog, slap on the wrists for me! So many things have happened this year, from unusually long bouts of painful crisis, to embarking on a new course of study. In the author sense, I've been kinda lazy in some respects, it others I've been working in overdrive. Either way I tend to be my greatest critic and to that end, even if I managed to write 10 books in one year, I'd still be moaning about not having achieved enough. Hmm, sad but true.
This year has been amazing in so many ways, but there have been times that painful crisis has tinted my rose coloured glasses a couple shades of grey. There have been times I have wanted to write something positive to keep myself on track, but I'd be lying if I said I never get those moments where I say, "To hell with it, it's not going to take away this damn pain is it?" Truth is, for how this year started out and continued to be filled with crisis, I began to wonder if a trend was developing. Is it that as I am getting older my health is going to simply deteriorate? I didn't ever voice this fear with any seriousness as I am a person who believes in the power of the mind, so I plod along and make like it's no biggie. I didn't want to manifest the possibility into my reality. And yet harbouring this fear hasn't stopped the pain either.
Right about now I'm in a place of remembering self and giving gratitude for it. Though I pretty much wrote a book on FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) and how it works, it doesn't mean I'm immune to it. Not by a long shot.
Part of remembering caused me to have a sudden urge to look up the Crazy Frog video. I loved it to bits when it first came out. It was to the point that everytime there was a new song or remix created around the concept, friends and family would say, "Have you seen/heard the new Crazy Frog...." blah blah... fill in the gap. I was never interested in the money making commercialization of it, only the original. Why? Because in it the Frog demonstrates faith in something that to the viewer doesn't exist. A motorbike or something of a similar nature. His faith is so strong he looks crazy as he makes sound effects for it whilst wearing a safety helmet in anticipation of it. Then something amazing happens. We see exhaust fumes bluster from behind him, he isn't surprised. We see his body raise of the floor, he is now sitting on it, he isn't surprised. He expected it and shouts "Weeee" as he disappears off the screen riding his bike. THAT is the power of the mind that we all have the ability to create with. With that, I am back on track, ready to focus on my creation of good health and massive book sales ;)
This year has been amazing in so many ways, but there have been times that painful crisis has tinted my rose coloured glasses a couple shades of grey. There have been times I have wanted to write something positive to keep myself on track, but I'd be lying if I said I never get those moments where I say, "To hell with it, it's not going to take away this damn pain is it?" Truth is, for how this year started out and continued to be filled with crisis, I began to wonder if a trend was developing. Is it that as I am getting older my health is going to simply deteriorate? I didn't ever voice this fear with any seriousness as I am a person who believes in the power of the mind, so I plod along and make like it's no biggie. I didn't want to manifest the possibility into my reality. And yet harbouring this fear hasn't stopped the pain either.
Right about now I'm in a place of remembering self and giving gratitude for it. Though I pretty much wrote a book on FEAR (False Evidence Appearing Real) and how it works, it doesn't mean I'm immune to it. Not by a long shot.
Part of remembering caused me to have a sudden urge to look up the Crazy Frog video. I loved it to bits when it first came out. It was to the point that everytime there was a new song or remix created around the concept, friends and family would say, "Have you seen/heard the new Crazy Frog...." blah blah... fill in the gap. I was never interested in the money making commercialization of it, only the original. Why? Because in it the Frog demonstrates faith in something that to the viewer doesn't exist. A motorbike or something of a similar nature. His faith is so strong he looks crazy as he makes sound effects for it whilst wearing a safety helmet in anticipation of it. Then something amazing happens. We see exhaust fumes bluster from behind him, he isn't surprised. We see his body raise of the floor, he is now sitting on it, he isn't surprised. He expected it and shouts "Weeee" as he disappears off the screen riding his bike. THAT is the power of the mind that we all have the ability to create with. With that, I am back on track, ready to focus on my creation of good health and massive book sales ;)
